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karanguni )tl;dr: Going okay, brain full of brainiac things which is awesome, but overall things could be better. Motivationally-enviously eyeing some of your lovely Tumblr themes and, in one case, a highly customized gorgeous DW theme and thinking about how I need to clean up my neglected slum-lord Tumblrs and DW.
(yes, I know how to CSS/HTML with some Javascript. No, I am fucking lazy/busy/idk ... so I subject all of you with shit aesthetic.)
Okay, real update:
Enough random ramblings at my end. How’s your day going?
seventhe came up with this idea and with my painfully overbooked life, mobile games is where it is at for me until summer. Although given the number of old faves that have been re-released on mobile, mobile gaming might become my primary gaming platform for a while? TBD. auronlu pointed it out to me. So, when was that? August 2017? I think? I need to get back to FFRK but haven't had time. So... I have a year of on-and-off writing for Monsters. Pantsorama. Pantspalooza. Pantstastic. Pantsing Pantsy McPants.
Don’t ask how many words. (Hint: it’s a 6 digit number). Words include drafted scenes, outlines, character notes, drabbles and other short stories that stand on their own, prompt stories (some need to be finished & posted >_<), and various research notes ... so many notes. omfg. And meta conversation notes too.
THE PROBLEM: IF I ATTEMPT DO ANY MORE OUTLINING AND ORGANIZATION WORK, I AM GOING TO SCREEEEEAAAAAM.
The larger problem: I’m a tired, exhausted, doesn't-get-enough-sleep, works long hours, has a shitty commute, just doesn’t have time for nonsense, oh sooooo tired, emotionally worn out from work and just wants to write smexy prose person who really cannot schedule high energy mental time for BIG PICTURE ORGANIZATION of the epic amount of stuff in my scrivener binder unless I take a month of vacation and when I take a month of vacation, it isn’t going to be for this. (sadly).
So, I have a very non-linear story and I am trying to figure out how to just sit down and WRITE IT pronto. Note: write means all of the following:
(1) Write fresh new scenes into the final draft
(2) Copy-paste previously written scenes into the final draft, editing as needed
(3) Editing the whole damn thing, as needed.
(4) Post post post post post post post. Cough. POSTING stuff. So, perhaps, whenever I have the next 5 chapters in final draft mode, put those 5 into an edit-for-posting queue which gives me some buffer to make changes as I continue to work forward but, otherwise, anything in the editing queue is almost ready for posting.
The REAL PROBLEM is this: Sob. The story is so nonlinear. HOW TO DO THIS???
Well, I’ve spent a year trying to put all of Monsters into my head. Yes. Into My Head. The current goal is to just barf it all out (via cut-n-paste and fresh new writing). In a professional fiction world, I’d barf first, fix later. ...but this is fanfic. ;) Thus the goal of having a posting queue with approx 5 barf chapters at a time, which allows me to direction-correct a little bit up ahead before committing to posting.
So, here’s the deal. (oh, this is Monsters, FFVII, fanfic, epic. but the nonlinear problem could apply to any story, even an orig. deets behind the read more)
( Read more... )In addition to an anniversary prompt fest for Monsters’ main ships, hit me up on MBTI-related thoughts regarding characterization and how I am attempting (lol…) to use MBTI cognitive function ideas to model unhelpful behavior that ends up putting characters into conflicts with themselves. [EVIL GRIN]
Really, anything from “how the hell does this even work?” to something far more specific, even how did I make these type decisions.
I have been thinking about writing on this topic but ever time I try, I just end up with a random word pile in my scrivener so… ask away.
FWIW, while one can make different argument for each of the characters, within Monsters I am most definitely treating the following characters as the following types:
- Vincent (Turk!Vincent & undead!Vincent) - INTJ, as an increasingly unhealthy one until he bottoms out into severe dysfunctional INTJ-lost-in-shadow-function-land by the time Cloud meets him. By the end of Monsters, he finally becomes far more functional/healthy/realistic.
- Yuffie - ENFP, who hits a bottomed out super dysfunctional space at a very young age, shortly before she joins Cloud’s crew in FFVII:OG. By the end of Monsters she is definitely starting to grow up (age 21).
- Lucrecia - ENTP, whom I write as a typical(???) ENTP until she becomes emotionally stressed, destabilized, and circles around the drain in a way that is depressingly dysfunctional ENTP, I think… D:
- Hojo - ISTJ, who starts off as an ISTJ style scientist with some unpleasant quirks that, when put under pressure, goes to shit. And all of that is before he becomes a Crazy Scientist™ with full on avoidant personality issues.
- Other characters open to interpretation…
Yesterday on Tumblr I keyflailed & squeed about how today is the one year anniversary of my novel-writing lovefest with the most perfect plot bunny for me to write: Even The Littlest Monsters Cast Shadows Long and Tall -- a FFVII fanfic novel about Lucrecia, Vincent, & Yuffie, plus Grimoire, Hojo, Avalanche, etc.
The story, as planned, unpacks and plays with a beautiful mess of implications and eyebrow-raisers in the cheesetastic Dirge of Cerberus plus other related bits of the FFVII franchise, with all of it viewed through the lens of a gamer/writer who worked as a bonafide Scientist(tm) with a couple of decades of comparable experience (corp+academic), and who is capable of incorporating (fictional?!?) social commentary on post-colonialism, the problems of corporatism-and-science (including when mixed with governmental goals), high achieving professional women’s anger, popular media and identity, and all the horror both literal and figurative.
Plus, well, Vincent is (unintentionally) hilarious despite the whole concept driving him being depressingly sad.
Sigh. MONSTERS. After pants’ing my way to a very large number of messy words, I am in that horrible terrible (boring, lol) phase of TRYING TO ORGANIZE/OUTLINE THE GIANT MESS I CREATED ALL OF LAST YEAR. :D
And to make things more fun while in this terrible organization phase, I am open to prompts all this month! \o/
So, here is an awesome list of prompts and these are the Monsters ships I will take for any of those prompts:
-- Yuffie x Vincent
-- Lucrecia x Vincent
-- Lucrecia x Grimoire
-- Lucrecia x Hojo
Leave a comment below or use my tumblr ask box : just give me a prompt number from that list plus a ship and weirdshit will no doubt result. :D
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