Writing original fic reminds me what I wrote/write fanfic

Writing is hard. Fanfic is hard. Orig fic is ridiculously hard.

Was reading about an organic approach for growing and structuring a novel-length plot in a manner that mixes aspects of pantsing with aspects of planning/outlining. The approach spoke to me because it was an inside-out (actually, middle-out) approach that structures itself around key scenes. This is naturally how I write. But it had a few twists. 

Rather than risk diving in with one of my annoying orig projects, my first thought was "test drive this method by backfitting it to an existing half-planned fanfic WIP."  Was busy and away from my computer for the past day so the exercise was mostly mental: give actual structure to a flagging subplot that runs the length of one of my DA WIPs. 

80% of a breakthrough occurred (just noting that a specific subplot *was* flagging and needed structure was 50% of that breakthrough), and now I just want to fast draft that entire subplot.

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And that realization reminded me of why I drifted away from fanfic when AO3 became the amazon.com of fanfic-land. 

I despise writing long fiction in chapter-by-chapter order. My very unpopular opinion is that unless you are a rare talent, this is a recipe for stale fiction.

AO3 is an archive. ARCHIVE of our own. It's a place to post fiction once you are ready to forget about it and move on to a new project.

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Thinking right now about an onion-skin layered model for pulling together well structured long-form fiction that remains fully character-driven yet is still tightly structured (dare I say plotted? except the goal is not plot-driven genre fiction). Thinking about giving this method a test drive with one of my DA WIPs and growing it organically, which means posting scenes radically out of order until the entire draft is "done" and then doing a fast "bake-and-edit" pass from beginning to end.

Also looking at the clock/calendar. 

Trying to figure out how little time I can given this such that it doesn't eat too much into my primary writing commitments (not fanfic) for 2016. 

The most obvious risk is that once I learn everything I need to learn from this exercise, I just plain stop. ;)    (something I have done many times before because fanfic is primarily my writing workshop).

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Also, yet again I have abandoned reading of another tall pile of bookmarked fanfics on AO3. I just ... could not. when skimming become speed-scrolling I know i'm done. Which, in turn, grudgingly pushes me to write fic.